Yourself.
Saturday, October 13, 2012, ϟ 0 shout(s)
Today is a random Friday, nothing special and unique.
However, it's one of the rare weekdays I got to stay in because basketball lesson was cancelled. And just now after lunch, I decided to grab my purse and go to the nearby grocery store to stock up on my secret omnom stash I have hidden in my room.
It was a beautiful afternoon and I was reluctant to let it go to waste my staying indoors so I went to my neighborhood bench and sat. I didn't do anything, no phone, no companion, no book. Just sat.
And it was one of the most amazing experiences. I realized that I can never get the opportunity to just take an afternoon walk around my neighborhood on weekday afternoons. It's really an awesome experience. I remember having those when I was a kid, but in recent years, nah. My Singapore-uni-student mindset was why should I waste 2 hours looking at nothing when I should be completing yet another tutorial or go work on that project or omg freaking start studying for the approaching midterms. Or walk kibbs/help brother with work/chat with sister/dinner with boyfriend/shopping with friends.
You see? In that terribly dense piece of land, I never had time for myself. I'm not saying its a bad thing, in fact its really good to be surrounded with love and all, but now, I've suddenly got independence and self-survival thrusted into my hands. I finally realized the beauty of being by myself, in the open, with the chirps of the birds and the occasional laughter of kids. It's really a heavenly feeling.
So if you have time, do take a walk in the park by yourself. Listen to yourself and look at the path you've trod on all these while. Look at what you've achieved, how you've come so far and what should you do next.
It's uplifting. It's one of my aha moments, when I realized I'm comfortable in a new neighborhood, on a weekday afternoon in Mexico.
new past