Sunday, January 06, 2008, ϟ 0 shout(s)


Well, this would be my tribute to Ayumi Hamasaki, whom I have learnt alot from.

She wasn't someone I listened songs from, she wasn't someone I buy music from, she teaches us lessons, to be strong and optimistic even when luck turned away from you, even when you are left in a despair.

Her recent blog posts:

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Translation by HiruNoKaze:

My frank resolution for this year.

The truth is, last year, I had an ear check-up, my diagnosis being that my left ear has completely lost all function and that there is no treatment.

Even so, I want to keep being a singer.

That's why I'll keep singing as long as this remaining right ear works, to its limit.

I won't quit.

I won't make excuses.

As a professional, I will sing the best songs for you*.

I don't really like the word "ganbaru," but... I will ganbaru**!!!!!

At all costs!!!!!!!!!

Until that day, someday...


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Hmm..
There's a lot of replies coming from everyone.. and even till now it's still not stopping yet.. Hmm.. regarding that... yes..

No matter when i will always try my best, using my own language to express all my thoughts and feelings to everyone.. i guess everyone should be able to understand me.

Yea, this is how i believe it.
Therefore, i decided to write it.
This has been kept secret in my heart.. without even telling my family and staffs whom i love..

No. Strictly speaking it's not like this..
I had only told mama about this. (Her godmother)
Regarding the fact that my left ear had completely lost its function..

Wanted to go to the hospital because i truly felt some strange with my ears..
Although i kept telling those around me that it's due to some new changes in the earphone.. Honestly, when the doctor told me it's not treatable anymore,
that it's too late, my mind just went blank.

Funny that somewhere in my heart i thought that if i took some time out to do the operation, it will be cured.
But i was wrong.

I can still remember the firm look on the doctor's face..
A pitying, very sorry look.

Therefore, i laughed.
Even though i don't know why, but i continue to laugh.
I said this and i laughed.
I quietly returned to my ward, surrounded by my beloved staffs.
However, please do not view what i'm going to say next in a pessimistic way.

I had accepted the fact.
Furthermore i'm not feeling despaired, instead i saw the light of hope.
Hope everyone could understand.

Reason being, didn't all of u said u want to become my left ear?
Didn't everyone said that in order to let me hear it, you will cheer for me even louder?
Correct?
Thus, i have to move forward together with my right ear-san.
I'm not forcing myself.
Because to me that's a happy matter.

Please do not worry!!!!!!!!!!!

From today onwards i will continue to move forward like this~~~!!!!
Yes, let's move on together!!!!!
I want to show u the dream it wouldn't end, wouldn't disappear..
I want you to have such a dream.
That is my wish.
Thanks everyone... all of u... all of u...
Thank you mama (godmother)
Thank you, my most beloved sister (Note, should be referring to her recently passed away sister, Natsuki)
Let's walk together 10th anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



You see?? Ayu is that diferent from other people... I dunno why, but she's really different. She lost her best friend recently, and GUILTY album is dedicated to Natsuki, she had a downhill, but she's optimistic, and I'm gonna be like her.

Stress? Try to overcome it. I have to be optimistic, then life will be full.


Ayu then had a 3rd posting on her blog in 1 day:

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At the moment, the colour in the sky is too....beautiful!!!

In sequence from top to bottom, there's blue, lake blue, green, yellow, purple, and just above the buildings is dark blue~

Quick go see it everyone~

It's so beautiful till i want to send the news to everyone immediately~ (^_-)-☆


She's that optimistic.

And I want to be like her. She's a good role model, IMO. Coz she ain't as simple as a singer, she's a mentor.




Ok, I have piccies of wadever single/album that I bought.


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- The first single my sis and I ever bought. (& Single)
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- The other singles
- STEP you/Is this love?, Fairyland, Inspire, Blue Bird
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- The albums
- Memorial Address (2003), My Story (2004), (Miss) Understood (2005), Secret (2006/7)
- Waiting for GUILTY (2007/8), out next week.
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- Compilation Albums
- A BEST 2 -WHITE-, A BEST 2 -BLACK- (2007)
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- Arena Tours
- A MUSEUM (2004), Arena Tour ~My Story~ (2005), Arena Tour ~(Miss)Understood (2006)
- Waiting for Asia Tour ~Tour of Secret~ (2007), releases in March 2008
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- EVERYONE!
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And If you forgot how Ayu looked like,


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- She was like this 5 days ago, during Countdown Live 07-08.
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- She already knew she was deaf in her left ear, she was optimistic.


Ok, tt's all~


Yay, sch tmr. Massive tests on Wed. Hurray =D \

(I'm a psyco to love tests.) Not.

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